RIGHT THIS TIME
"'Cause God help me Buffy. It's still all about you," Spike said, his voice cracking.
Buffy bowed her head to hide her own tears. She looked back up and took a deep breath. "Spike," she said, her voice kinder. "Sit. We need to talk," she said, sitting on his bed.
Spike swallowed hard and sat on his bed, leaning against the wall. "Buffy, I don't understand why we're talking about this," he said.
Buffy sniffled. "Spike, this vampire I killed said you sired him," she said, softly.
"But I don't remember, Pet. I just remember going out and coming home. I don't know what happened to the girls or the vampire you're talking about," Spike said, his eyes downcast.
"Then I'm gunna help you remember. This is gunna get you killed. Please don't make me have to kill you. I don't wanna believe this vampire, Spike. I wanna believe you, so don't misplace my trust in you," Buffy said, looking at him.
"Okay. I'll see if I can figure out what happened. I can't make any promises," Spike said, meeting her eyes.
Buffy laid down and rested her head in his lap. "You don't have to make any promises," she said, softly. She began stroking his thigh. "Just don't shut me out," she whispered.
"Okay," he whispered sleepily.
"Get some sleep. I'll stay a little while," she said, closing her eyes and snuggling into him.
Spike raised an eyebrow and began stroking her hair. He closed his eyes and drifted to sleep.
About and hour later Buffy swam back to consciousness. She carefully slipped out of Spike's bed and pulled the sheet back up over him.
Buffy kissed his forehead. "I'll be back later. Please be okay 'til then," she whispered before leaving.
She ran into Xander in the living room. "There's something wrong with him. I'll be back at sundown."
"Do you know anything?" Xander asked.
"He doesn't remember," Buffy sighed. "Just leave him be for now. He needs rest. I need to find out what's making him act like this."
"How do you know it's not free will?" Xander asked.
"Xander, you didn't see him in there. He was really upset, because he thinks he's betraying me. It's killing him to think that I could end up punishing him," Buffy said, looking at Spike's closed door.
"Buffy, you're in love with him," Xander said.
Buffy looked at him. "I'm not. But I feel so much for him. Last year was not his fault. It was mine. I shouldn't of started it. No, I'm not saying what he did was okay, but he... Look, I don't wanna argue with you. Whatever Anya feels for you is what I feel for Spike, K?" Buffy said.
"The situations don't compare Buffy," Xander said.
"Yes they do. I hurt Spike. Very badly. You left Anya at the altar, and as a result, you guys aren't together anymore. Spike hurt me and as a result, he went and got a soul. We got a second chance. You and Anya can have that too," Buffy said, leaving.
At sundown, Buffy arrived at Xander's apartment. Spike was already waiting for her
"Where's Xander?" Buffy asked.
'Anya's. He said it was really important that he went to talk to her," Spike said, shrugging.
Buffy smiled. "That's good. Um... I have an idea. You and I are going out. I'm gunna see if it happens while I'm with you," she said, going toward him.
"As long as this stops soon, I'm willing to try anything at this point," Spike said, stretching his arms over his head.
"Come on. We have a work to do and I could use a break from slaying," she said, smiling.
Spike opened the door. "After you," he said.
"Thanks," Buffy said, smiling, and they left.
After an hour of making sure Spike wasn't going crazy, they hit the bronze.
They were sitting at the bar laughing as if they didn't have a rocky past.
"So, how's the head?" She asked.
"So far I'm not crazy, so I guess that's good," Spike said, taking a sip of his beer.
Buffy smiled and stood up. "Come on. Let's dance," she said, pulling Spike onto the dance floor.
As nervous as they both were, it didn't take long to get in the rhythm. They danced just like they fought.
After the upbeat song ended, Buffy wrapped her arms around Spike's neck and they moved to the slow song.
Spike wrapped his arms around her waist and moved his hips with hers.
Buffy laid her head on his chest and tried to pull him closer.
Spike laid his head on hers and started purring.
Buffy smiled and threaded her fingers into his hair. "Spike?"
"Yeah, Buffy," he mumbled into her hair.
"I just... I missed you," she said, tears welling in her eyes. "I really didn't want you to leave."
"I had to, Pet. I couldn't stay here knowing that I hurt you," Spike whispered.
"Why did you come back? They never come back," Buffy said, tears sliding down her cheeks.
"'Cause I didn't wanna hurt you more by staying away. I didn't care about the consequences. I just wanted to see you again," Spike said, hugging her tighter when he felt her tears on his shirt.
Buffy pressed her face in his chest. "I'm glad you came back. You have no idea how much it means to me. Just the fact that you came back got you major points," she said, turning her head toward his.
"Nothing I say or do is gunna make up for what I did, Buffy. I can't take back what I did even though I'd give anything to take it back," he said.
Buffy lifted her head to look in his eyes. "Spike, you don't have to take it back. You got your soul and that brings enough pain to make up for what you did. If that night didn't happen, I wouldn't of realized how much I hurt you. We were both wrong and if we don't let it go, we're never gunna be able to start again," she said, with a smile.
"Again?" Spike asked, a flicker of hope in his eyes.
Buffy leaned up and kissed him softly.
Spike closed his eyes and kissed her back.
Buffy pulled away a little. "We're gunna do it right this time," she said, against his lips.
Spike kissed her softly as they continued to dance.
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