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I don't know to do
I'm scared
I hate and love
at the same time
Is that even possible?
I hate slaying
It's ruining my life
And people are dying.
It's my fault
That people are dying
I should be there
To protect them.
It isn't fair
One girl in all the world
Well, now there are two
What about Kendra?
With Kendra
I should be able to quit
I should be able to say that I'm off to Disneyland
But I can't because more people will die.
I hate that I was chosen
Why not Kendra
then me? Is that possible?
When Kendra died, I would take over?
I know what it feels like
to lose someone you once loved
I know what it's like
to die.
I died once.
As I went to
face my death
I was scared.
As i went to my death,
I reminded myself
I was saving the world; i should be proud.
I'm the only one; I'm special.
But if I really am special,
How come I have to face death?
How come I get people killed?
How come I get no blame?
I feel as though if people blame me
I should be free of friends
I should be free of watching out for them
free of hurting them.
But I can't leave them
They're my friends; who would take care of them?
If they get hurt, i would get blame
from myself.
That would be much easier.
I would be free of responsiblities
I would also not have
the friends I have now.
I love my friends
They're always there for me
If not for my slaying
I wouldn't have moved to Sunnydale to meet them, or Angel.
I love Angel
I won't hide that
We belong together but it's impossible
Angel and I shouldn't be together
I know I'm the slayer
I know I'm suppose to be strong
but could I stop myself from falling in love...
with a vampire, even one with a soul.
I love Angel
but it can't happen.
are we meant to be together forever?
After all, I'm a slayer and he's a vampire.
I hate my life.
I slay
and in my free time
I eat, sleep, and go to school.
Why was I chosen?
What did I do wrong?
All I know is
I love, too.
I love Angel
I love having
nice, honest friends
I kill, I slay, I hang with my friends.
If not for my slaying
I would never had met them
Now I love slaying and
I hate slaying.
I'm now asking
Is it possible to love and
hate at the same time?
Someone, please answer.
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