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How could the one I gave my heart to,
Break my heart so bad?
How could the one that made me happy,
Make me feel so sad?
Wont somebody tell me
So I can understand
If you love me
How could you hurt this heart of mine?
Tell me
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"I love you I try not to but I can't stop."
I swallowed heavily, holding back a river of tears, as I stared at the silver plated ring we shared. Shared..shouldn't it be share? God..how could I let this happen to us? I swore to myself nothing could ever tear us apart, ever. I swore your demon, your past, or our future would never scare me away. But now I'm going against my promises and staying away from you who I love and will always love.
I twisted it around my finger, hoping in some way the more I wish and the more I pray the easier it will be for you to come back to me. For you to be the same Angel I fell in love with, the Angel I trusted as I layed in your arms. I let out a sigh. That night...oh god that night. Will I ever have that feeling of pleasure and security and warmth as I did in your bed, in your house, in your arms? All I want is for you to be back, to be Angel again, to be mine..
How could you be so cold to me?
When I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I thought we had forever
I cant understand
I gave you everything, my love, my devotion, my trust, and you just turned on me. Why? Thats one question I can't answer. I just want to shake you, to make you see how much your hurting me. I know there's still apart of you in there. Please let me just here you say I love you..just one more time. My heart wrenched and soared with happiness as I heard your voice break as you confessed you loved me. Has it all changed? Or do you still, deep down care for me?
I'm crying now. Do you think the tears are ever going to stop? Do you think I'll ever be able to move on? To love someone else? I can't think of what life would be like without your low voice, your loving eyes, your soft lips, I guess now I have to. I can always live by memories and dreams. I can always picture you as you were, holding my hand tightly and kissing my lips so sweetly I never wanted to pull apart.
I think at night, if I had let you go that night in the Bronze, that if we didn't have to kiss on Halloween, that if we just ended it, maybe I could still see you smile and still feel you next to me. But maybe then I wouldn't of had the sweet and wonderful memories and moments you gave me. How your smell and the feel of you is still with me everyday. I'll never let you go..ever, no matter how hard I try your always going to be there, smiling and holding me, kissing my tears and my worries away.
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I thought we had forever
How could the one who said I love you,
Say the things you say?
How could the one I was so true to,
Just tell me lies?
Sometimes I want to be mad at you, to just take a stake and end my miseries. After all you said to me..I sometimes think it's easy. But then I see your face and I think of all the love and the passion we shared, I can't do it. I know your going to keep pushing, your going to keep trying to make me hate you, and maybe one day it'll work, but know that when you die, my heart goes with you.
If you ever read this..please know Angel that I'll always love you, and I'll always be with you. No matter what you do I'll love you and care for you. I want you back more than anything in the whole world. I just want the pain and the tears to stop, but most of all I want to be back in your arms, in your heart...where I belong..
How could you hurt me like that?
How could the one I gave my world to,
Throw my world away?
How could the one who said I love you,
Say the things you say?
How could the one I was so true to,
Just tell me lies?
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Make me feel so sad?
How could the one I gave my heart to,
Break my heart so bad?
Tell me..
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