Empty feeling
After that conversation I stayed upstairs till everyone was asleep.
I quietly went downstairs, thinking that no one was going to be there.
So I went to the living room, searching for any clues... I found nothing.
So I figured that they must have left a clue in the recreation room, cause that's also where that girl who clamed she was my cousin was waiting. Boy, was she one crazy woman.
Now back to my story...
I carefully went to the recreation room so that nobody could hear me.
And what do I find out ?!
Someone was already waiting for me. I was searching the house for nothing!
"Sit down please."
I didn't recognize the voice, it wasn't that so-called cousin, but it also wasn't Nadia.
It was a woman, that much I knew, you could tell from her voice, not her clothes, cause she was just wearing a black pants and a black sweater and some black shoes, it was to dark to see what colour of hair she haid.
And she never turned around.
But I didn't leave, I was curious, so I sat down.
"You are Sandy, right ? Sandy Summers ?"
She asked me, but she still didn't turn around.
I guess she didn't want me to see her face or something, cause, in our entire conversation, she never turned around.
"I'm Sandy, just Sandy, I don't know my last name."
"Didn't your cousin visit you today ? Didn't she tell you her name ?"
"Oh, that crazy woman, yeah, she told me, I just don't believe her."
I waited for a response... I didn't get any.
"I was right, it's to soon." she mumbled.
Then she left, I tried to see her face, but she was to fast and before I knew it, she was gone.
I really don't get it anymore, why do all these women come to me ?
I'm so confused, it's like, before I alaways had this feeling that I belonged in the orphanage. Now I don't even know anymore. I don't know where my home is. Or where it should have been if my mother didn't abandon me.
I really want somwhere I belong, but I don't even know these people who claim that I am Sandy Summers. If they are really my family, then why did they leave me al alone for fourteen years.
Cause deep down, I've always been alone, I always had to look after myself, even though I had the sisters, and they were great to me, they still are, but they've nevere known how hard it is, to be alone in this world, to have no real family, no real friends, they've never known.
And if I really have a cousin, if I really have a last name, how do I know they won't leave me again ? Or if they'll love me, play with me, dance with me,...
If they'll do all those things that a normal teenager does.
But most of all, ...
Can they take this empty feeling inside of me away ???
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