Someone's Watching Over Me: Someone's Watching Over Me
by faith_slayer89
A/N: Lyrics are in italics. Hope you enjoy, as this is my first attempt at this kind of fic. One shot, from Faith's perspective.

Someone's Watching Over Me
It's so weird, isn't it, B? I always thought that you were the stronger one, the more powerful one, the Chosen One. But here I am in your place. Again. This fucking deja vu shit is getting old. Don't get me wrong; being in charge of Slayers, Inc. is pretty sweet. Strangely enough, I'm doing the job pretty well. And I'm loving it (Fuck, now the stupid Mickey D's jingle is gonna be stuck in my head all day.). Stranger still, I'm actually respected by everyone.

Found myself today,
Oh I found myself and ran away.

So, B, tell me. Tell me why the hell I almost threw it all away with a broken piece of glass and several well-placed cuts on my wrists? Forget the fact that I temporarily forgot about the Slayer's healing powers. Forget the fact that Red found me crying my fucking eyes out and saved me. Tell me why the hell I did it. Better yet, tell me what stopped me from going for the jugular.

Something pulled me back,
The voice of reason I forgot I had.

Wanna know what I think? Take one fucking guess, B. Take one fucking guess at why I decided to go all suicidal and didn't even do the damn thing right.

All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say,
But it's written in the sky tonight.

Yeah, B. As much as you might hate it, it always comes back to you. Not tryin' to guilt you, or anything, but my psychiatrist says it's good to be honest (But what the fuck does he know about honesty? He's screwing the secretary while his wife and kids are at the zoo.). So I'm gonna be honest. I miss you, B. There could be one million Slayers now (and there probably are), but none of them will ever understand how being a Slayer was before Red worked her mojo. 'Sides, you probably would have never figured this, but you were the closest thing to a best friend I ever had.

So I won't give up,
No, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems, life turns around.
And I will be strong,
Even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.

I think you saved me that night, B. I think...well, I was never the philosophical one, but I figure that you knew that I needed a little guidance from up above. From you. So you saved me. You sent Red and you made the glass just dull enough and everything just so, so that I'd see the light.

Seen that ray of light,
And it's shining on my destiny.

You probably don't believe I've reformed (dunno if you ever will), but I have. I'm one of the White Hats now, and I know with perfect clarity exactly who I am.

Shining all the time
And I won't be afraid,
To follow everywhere it's taking me.

I've grown up, B. I've matured and gotten stronger and wiser. I'm a fucking Champion, B.

All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong,
Took this moment to my dreams.

I've picked up where you left off, and apparently, I qualify for that exclusive little club you, Angel, Spike, and Cordy all belong to (by the way, give them my regards, will you?). And the funny thing? With all this pressure and all the expectations? I'm not afraid.

So I won't give up,
No, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems, life turns around.
And I will be strong,
Even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.

B, I know you and your lover boy up there are keeping an eye on me. And to Angel? I'm eternally grateful. You never gave up on me, and it's a fucking Kodak moment to know that you're still my guardian angel.

It doesn't matter what people say,
And it doesn't matter how long it takes,
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high.
And it only matters how true you are,
Be true to yourself and follow your heart.

I'm trying my hardest to do right, and I really hope that you guys are proud of me, of who I've become and what I've done.

So I won't give up,
No, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems, life turns around.
And I will be strong,
Even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe
That I won't give up,
No, I won't break down,
Sooner than it seems, life turns around.
And I will be strong,
Even when it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark, I'll still believe
That someone's watching over,
Someone's watching over,
Someone's watching over me.

'Cause honestly, I have to believe that. It's the only thing that helps me gets through the days. I know I have no right to think that you guys take the time out of your heavenly lives just to watch over me, but it really is nice to believe that

Someone's watching over me.

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