The Fun of Life: Feelings
by Soulful_spikes_true_love
Feelings (3)
Willow wakes up as her alarm clock goes off, she crawls out of bed and looks in the mirror, she walks into the bathroom, to wash up, 10 minutes later, she exits the bathroom and goes over to her cupboard she looks through her cloths and decides upon a pink spaghetti strap, dress, she puts it on and looks in the mirror she takes her hairbrush and sorts out her hair, when she is all dressed she walks into the living room and then to the kitchen, she makes some toast and pours out a cup of fresh orange juice then she heads back to the living room and sits down on the sofa, she turns on the TV, but has the volume on low because Buffy was still asleep, she looks at her door,
I wonder how her date was last night, she doesn’t normally sleep in this long, oh god what if she… no she couldn’t have, she wouldn’t she wouldn’t do that to Angel…would she?
She thinks to herself, then to get the thought out her head and looks back at the TV.

Buffy yawns and stretches her arms she turns her head to the curtains which are still closed but can see the beautiful sun light shining through, she slides out of bed and over to the curtain, she pulls them both open and looks out at the spectacular view, she sees the waves splash along on the coast and the people on the beach surfing sunbathing, kids playing in the sand, she smiles at the lovely sight.
She walks over to the mirror and grabs her brush and brushes her hair, she thinks back to the night before,
The car ride, the music, the beach the sunset, it was all perfect, he was so caring, so warm, and loving, but I cant feel this way, I have to go back to Angel, I made a promise and I cant break that for some guy that I meet while on my getta way, some random guy, this is just my nerves that al.
She looks in the mirror after brushing her hair, she takes a hair band and puts it up into a bun and heads for the bathroom, after washing she comes out and looks for an outfit, she grabs a long silk skirt and blouse out,
No
She thinks and hangs them back up, she then grabs a short, purple, dress,
No, ugh
She gets frustrated,
Why am I so concerned to look good, it’s not because of him… is it? God I hope not, I just feel like looking good today, yep that’s it
She thinks, she then grabs a pair of demin shorts and a blue tank top,
‘This’ll do’ she says as she pulls on the short and puts the top on, she heads out of the room and into the living room,
‘Morning’ Willow says as she walks out her bedroom,
‘Morning’ Buffy says,
‘So did you have fun last night… I mean not that sorta fun, coz you wouldn’t do that… would you?, I mean of course you wouldn’t’ she rambles on trying to correct everything she says, Buffy raises her eyebrows,
‘Uh Willow, did you get up a little to early’ she says with a smiles, Willow chuckles,
‘Come on Buffy, spill, tell me what happened’ she says walking into the kitchen with Buffy, Buffy sighs,
‘Ok, Will, nothing happened so don’t worry about that, I still remember Angel ok and nothing will happen, he took me for a ride in his car, a gorgeous baby blue convertible, and we listened to music, then we went to the beach and watched the sunset, it was so beautiful, we held each other, until I fell asleep in his arms he woke me up and carried me to his car and brought me home…’ she looks over at Willow who’s jaw was hanging lose and looked like it would fall off, Buffy laughs at her expression, and Willow giggles,
‘Wow, that’s so romantic…’ she shakes her head, ‘I mean oh ok, so you had fun with your new friend’ she emphasises the friend, Buffy does a side smile, and Willow smiles happily, they start laughing again.

Buffu walks along the slightly crowded beach, she reaches a wall and just leans on it looking out at the ocean, she is wearing a light blue silk dress that reaches just below the knees, her hair hangs lose around her bare shoulder, she tilts her head up to look at the sky and to get the hair away from her face,
‘Hell, gorgeous’ Spike said walking up behind Buffy and putting his hands on her shoulders, she smiles and tilts her head to look into his crystal blue eyes,
‘Hey’ she says with a smile, he jumps up on the wall, she leans on his legs and he wraps his arms around her, he bends his head down to her ear and whispers,
‘Have fun last night luv?’ she looks up at his face and smiles,
‘it was great’ she says, he smirks, as she turns her head to look out at the ocean once again, he bends his head down to her shoulders and softly kisses her neck, Buffy smiles and tilts her head so he cant kiss her neck, he smirks and kisses her on the other side of her neck,
‘Spike’ she says after a little giggle,
‘Mmmm?’ he moans as he kisses her neck again, she moves away from him and turns to look at his face,
‘I can’t do this’ she says sadly, he cocks his head to the side confused,
‘Do what luv?’ he asks, and jumps down from the wall and walks over to him, she lowers her head so she doesn’t have to look at him,
‘This…’ she says slightly under a whisper, he cups her chin in his hand and lifts her head, she turns it so she doesn’t look at him,
‘Ai look at me’ he says and turns her head to look at him, she has unshed tears in her eyes,
‘Spike I cant do this, I’m sorry… I… I’m… I’m getting married’ she says and gives in, she lets the tears fall, Spike’s face saddens, his eyes loss their lightness and they turn dark and grey,
‘Wh…What?’ he asks in disbelief, she lifts her head to look at him with a tear stained face,
‘Spike I’m so sorry, I…’
‘Your getting married?’ he asks again, she lowers her head again and slowly nods, backs up a bit from her and shakes his head, he looks down and lets a tear fall, after a few minutes he lifts his head and hides his pain, he looks at her who is still crying, he walks over to her and wraps his arms around her, and brings her into him, she lifts her head to look at him, its clear he is in pain but he hides it,
‘I’m sorry’ she whispers, he looks at her and wipes a stray tear from her cheek,
‘Shhh pet its ok’ he says hiding his anger and sadness, Buffy backs away from him,
‘Spike please don’t… don’t do that… don’t act like you’re ok, I know you, and you’re not fooling me, so please drop the macho exterior’ she says again with tears falling down her face, he clenches his jaw and lets his anger out,
‘Well what do you expect me to do, blow let all my anger out on you, I cant do that this isn’t your fault’ he tilts his head and smirks, ‘You just needed something better than whoever you’re marrying can give you’ she lifts her head with wide eyes,
‘What’ she gasps, he walks closer,
‘Oh come on luv, you know you want me, you cant stay away, he cant satisfy you… like me’ he says licking the back of his teeth seductively, her eyes fill with tears,
‘Spike… please don’t do that’ she says a tear drops from her eye, he tilts his head,
‘Oh that funny I thought that what you wanted, for me to drop my macho exterior, well guess what luv…’ she lifts her head ‘its dropped, sorry to tell ya luv but this is me, the real me, think you can handle that’ he says with a smirk, her eyes widen and backs away,
‘This isn’t you, Spike, please stop I’m sorry I hurt you but, I… I couldn’t tell you, I…’ she lifts her head realising what she was a about to say and another tear falls, he steps closer to her and puts his arms on her hips,
‘You…?’ he waits for a reply, but instead she backs away from him and runs, he smirks after her, then it disappears and the tears he was fighting back show in his eyes, he lets one fall, before forcing the rest back.

‘Willow!’ she shouts when she reaches their lodge, Willow comes out of the kitchen, and sees her best friends tear stained face,
‘Buffy’ she says with concern in her voice ‘ What happened?’ she walks over to Buffy and closes the door and leads her to the living room, she sits next to her and wraps an arm around her, ‘Buffy what happened?’ she asks again, Buffy breaks down in tears and falls into Willow’s hug.

Later
Buffy and Willow are sitting on the couch, Buffy is hugging a pillow with tears falling down her cheeks, Willow is just staring at her with a shocked expression,
‘Wow’ she says, Buffy looks up at her friends expression and lets out a little giggle, but it is a giggle of frustration and sadness.
Buffy had just finished telling Willow what happened with Spike, however this time she had added what she hadn’t told Spike,
‘Buffy ar…are you sure I mean you could just be nervous you know cold feet’ she says trying to calm her friend, Buffy looks up at her and another tear falls,
‘Willow I…I… it isn’t cold feet or nerves its… its real, I… I love Spike’ another tear falls from her face and she cant hold it in anymore, she bursts into tears, Willow moves over to Buffy and gives her another hug,
‘Shh, Buffy its going to be ok…’ Willow looks up, but doesn’t break the hug; she knew if Buffy saw the look on her face she’d know what she was going to do
‘…I promise’

Hope you like the chapter hope you like the surprise about her getting married, don’t worry the next chapter will explain everything, including who the fiancé is, so please review and let me know what you think, and if you have any idea for what could happen or if there is something you would like to happen let me know and I’ll see what I can do J


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