The Gift-Fic Mini Series: Dawn's POV
by adancer
Why?
I've asked almost everyone that question. I asked God on the night. I asked Angel when he came for the funeral, while I was hugged into him. I asked Willow, Tara, Xander, Spike, Giles, Anya -even her herself. I never got the answer I wanted. I didn't even know answer I wanted. I knew why she'd done it but I didn't know why she'd done it.

I was the one who was meant to die. I was the one who was meant to lose their life...I wasn't even meant to have a life. I was cut, for a ritual to let a super-bitch go home. Buffy died to stop that ritual, to stop that super-bitch getting home. She wouldn't have got home anyway considering the body of Ben was found dead. I don't know and don't care what happened to him. I'm glad he's dead. It means Glory's dead. But Buffy should be here. Even if it means she was here instead of me.

I was up on that tower...I listened to her tell me what she was about to do...And I let her do it. I was stupid. I just stood there as my sister threw herself elegantly to her death. I stood there crying about it. Then I walked down the stairs, holding my wounded body, to find everyone crying. Because I was stupid. Her body was there. It was perfect. She could have been mistaken for someone sleeping. But she wasn't. But she was dead because of my stupidity.

The funeral was just as bad. I watched them put her body in the ground, like they'd put mom only a few months ago. I thought about throwing myself in. I didn't see the point of living, I didn't have anyone. Then I remembered:-

Dawn, the hardest thing in this world ... is to live in it. Be brave. Live. For me.
I had to do what she said. When she was here I didn't want to...actually I hated it...but now I have to. I have to be brave. I have to.

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