My inner child: Hell is where the heart is.
by Kellcool
Hell is where the heart is, hell is my home.
But when I am here I seem all alone.
Longing in my heart that will never go away.
But here I go on again, on another day.

' Giles, wake up, we're there.' Giles woke up to meet a young girl’s face. She couldn't have been any older than perhaps 12 or 13.
' Who..? ...Ah' Then all the memories from the night before came flooding back. It was Buffy standing there, as a 13 year old.
' Come on, we need to find a hotel to stay at while we figure out where to find this Hellmouth.'
He looked up at Buffy and then Xander. Willow was still asleep in the seat across the isle from them, snoring away, mumbling something about tadpoles.
' Will, come on, rise and shine.' said Xander.
' Ouch, plane seats are so uncomfortable. What airport are we at?' asked Willow.
' East midlands air port. Near a place called Derby.' Responded Giles who had been to this air port many a time in his life.
' Could all passengers please go through the exit doors and to the mini bus, thank you. I hope you enjoyed your flight.' said the airhostess through a microphone.
Buffy, Xander, Willow and Giles all got into the isle and headed towards the exit door. Stepping out of the aircraft, they saw warm blue skies, instead of the expected dreary weather.
' I thought that England wasn't as sunny as America, Giles.' said Willow.
' Oh, it is. When it’s hot here, it gets really hot. But when it gets cold, its almost numbing.' he replied. He had forgot that they had never been to England before and would rely on him to help them around here.
They got onto a mini bus that took them from the aeroplane to the airport where they would have to show their fake passport's again and exchange what little money they had for English pounds and pence.
The airport floor was tiled with a pinky marble and stone, and the trolley’s people were pushing kept jolting about because of the joins where the tiles met.
Once outside and in the car park, Giles phoned up a taxi service and pulled out a map.
' The closest village is Castle Donington, there is a couple of hotels that we can choose to go to. Lets just hope that they will let us in without an adult.'
' How about that one, Donington Manor, or there is the priest house.' suggested Willow.
' The priest house is haunted, supposedly, and we don't need that kind of distraction at this point.' said Giles.
' Look's like we're going to Donington Manor. Sounds expensive though.' said Buffy doubting that it was the right place to go, moneywise.
' It's not all that expensive actually, and I can just get some money out of my account here.'
The taxi arrived and they all hopped in.
' Take us to Donington Manor please.' said Giles.
When they arrived at the manor, Giles paid the driver and walked up the steps into the reception area.
The carpet was a royal red, and the chairs were a dark brown wood with blue cushions on them, giving the place a luxury effect. The walls were a neat cream colour and to the left was the reception desk and it was of the same wood as on the chairs, covered with gloss.
Also on the right was a long staircase, winding up to the next floor. It had a strip of the red carpet up it, showing about 30 cm of glossy wood on each side.
' Hello, I would like 2 rooms please.' Giles sounded funny trying to sound like an adult when he was so thin and weedy.
‘ I’m sorry, I cannot help you if you are under the allowance age.’
‘ We are 13 years old.’ said Xander.
‘ Ok. You are allowed. What kind of rooms would you like? Small, medium, large or luxury sweet?’
‘ Small please.’ said Giles, trying to be cautious of how much money they should spend.
She handed them 2 keys and pointed to the stairs
‘ That floor is where your rooms are. Rooms 72 and 73.’
They walked up the stairs and turned left. They saw the doors marked 72 and 73 in gold numbers.
' Who's going in which room with who?' asked Xander.
' I think he means who is going to get stuck with Giles.' corrected Buffy.
' I beg your pardon?'
' Well, your his slayer, so you should go with him Buffy.' said Willow.
' I'm not, have you heard him snore when he nods off in the library? I think that I should go with one of you mere civilians, in case of an emergency.'
' Excuse me! Since I seem to be the injured party and the adult, I will decide. And remember Buffy, you are not the slayer any more, you lost your strength and abilities when you turned 13!' said Giles.
' In case you havent noticed Giles, youre not an adult!'
' I'm still deciding! Xander will go with me and Buffy will go with Willow in room 73, so both of the girls are together and us men... boy's.'

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' So, d' ya think Giles will find a spell to change us back?' Willow asked Buffy once in their room.
' I don't know, I hope so. When we get back to Sunnydale'
' If we get back to Sunnydale ya mean.' interrupted Willow.
' WHEN we get back to Sunnydale,' insisted Buffy,' I am really going to enjoy hitting Ethan, slayer or not.
But first, we need to sort out this Hellmouth issue, not that it isn't ever a non- issue, ...and maybe get some new clothes. I don't know about you, but these are really starting to annoy me, and plus everyone keeps staring at us like we're some kind of weirdo's.'
'Agreed. But let's go without the boys, Giles is starting to piss me off with his " I'm a snooty britches and I have to take charge act." It kinda bug's me.'
'Also agreed. Have you got any English money? I forgot to change mine from American at the airport.'
' No, I think only Giles bothered to.' replied Willow.
' Look's like we're gonna have to pinch his wallet for a while. Once the boy's notice we're gone and so has Giles' wallet, I'm sure they'll get the gist that we've gone shopping.'
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' Where are the girls? Why aren't they answering?' said a worried Giles.
' Don't sweat it, I couldn't see your wallet around and since they're both gone , I can safely say that they have gone to that bizzaro world of shopping. I don't know if you noticed, but we look kinda stupid with these clothes on.' replied Xander.
' Shopping, oh, of corse. I worry too much. But with Buffy not being the slayer any more, she is powerless against any evil that crosses our path.'
' Well shouldn't we be trying to find a spell to change us back then? We can't sort out this Hellmouth problem in a size 4 shoe.'
' Yes I realise that, but we need to spend every once of time trying to locate this Hellmouth's exact whereabouts'.'
' Well, we can't do anything without the girls here, so maybe we should try and find the spell now.' said Xander.
' Alright, I think that there is a library in the village, but it only has ordinary books in it. There is one in a nearby place called Longeaton though. They might have some spell books in there. If not, then it's off to Nottingham, they have all sorts of shops there. We need to get a taxi.'
' I'll phone one while you go and get the money.'
Xander walked down the stairs to find a phone and picked up the receiver.
' Hello, yeh, I want a taxi to take me to Longeaton. Castle Donington, Donington Manor. Thanks.'
Giles came down with some money, his rather baggy trousers flapping about as he bounded down the stairs.
' Ive phoned, they should be here in around 5 mins.'
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' Ooh, what about this one, it would look so good on you! And those shoes are to die for!... Sorry Will, I was really into fashion when I was younger, I was really, really shallow.' said Buffy as they wandered around the clothes shop called Oxygen.
' It's alright. Do you think we can afford any of this stuff, or do you think that it is too expensive? I can't really tell because of the currency change. I know a little about the currency, but not enough im afraid.'
' Who cares,' she produced a wallet, ' Giles is buying.'She said with a smile.
' I wonder where he and Xander went to pass the time before we come back?'
' Giles is probably at some library reading some boring books on Demonology and voodoo spells 'n' stuff.'
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'I think this is the right book.' said Giles pulling out a red leather bound covered book titled "Reversing unwanted spells and charms ".
' You think it will change us back?' asked Xander.
' Well let's hope so, come on.' Xander followed Giles to take the book out of the library.
' Yes, I would like to borrow this book please.' he told the lady at the library desk.
' Ok, just give me your name and address and I will give you this library card to return with the book.'
' Rupert Giles, my address is 54 Callibur road, America. We're just visiting you see.'
' I see, and what would a young boy like you want with a book like that Rupert?'
' Just something for school. I'm taking a mythology class and I have a theory that they beleived in spells too. I'm just trying to match up any evidence.'
' Fascinating I'm sure. Good-bye.'
Giles and Xander left the library and called a taxi to take them back to the hotel.
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They got back and locked the door to the room.
' Let's just hope we don't get any room service while doing this.' said Xander. ' It'll be a hard time trying to explain that one.'
' Indeed. Can you grab that tablecloth over there from the table for me? I need to draw an altar to do this, and I don't think the hotel will appreciate me doing it on their carpet.'
Xander grabbed the tablecloth and handed it to Giles.
He pulled out a red crayon from his coat pocket (why he would carry one around I have no idea) and drew the occult symbol with precise accuracy. He then got out 4 candles (he had got them on the way back to the hotel from a place called Homestore) which were in a plastic bag and placed them around him after he had sat down in the altar.
' Now Xander, I'm going to need complete silence for this spell, if it isn't beyond your capability. Do not even move, or the whole thing will go wrong.'
He picked up the book and started chanting:
' Umway bisoo calta bum.
Make us older again t-' Just then, Xander sneezed, and blew out one of the lit candles.
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'Buffy, I feel kind of... old.' said Willow in a really thin voice. They both looked at themselves in the shop mirror horrified.They saw their wrinkly reflections and wirery grey hair.
' We look it as well. Im going to kill them both! Giles must have been trying to reverse the spell, always remember, never leave boys alone with magic, they gonna get it wrong. I'm just glad no-one saw us change into wrinklies.'
' Hey, if we changed, Xander and Giles must have changed too. Imagine them all old n stuff. Though, Giles probably hasn't changed much from when he was his usual age.'
They both laughed and paid for some clothes they saw to compensate for this mishap, and they were their actual size.
' Giles did this to us, so he can still pay for some clothes for us, for when we change back to normal.'
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' Xander you stupid idiot! I told you not to move! Now we look like old prunes!'
' You don't actually look that different from normal.. I
mean, um... ah.....' said Xander in a cracked voice.
' Well, thank you very much Xander!' he said. ' Let's just get on with the reversal spell.'
He repeated the spell and finished it off after lighting the blown out candle.
Just then the girls came bursting through the door.
' We look like old ladies!... Oh, Will, we've changed back already. Just when I had a whole speech on not doing stuff without my supervision.'
' Well you have Xander to thank for that, he sneezed when I told him not to make a sound, therefore distracting me and making the spell go wrong. So there.'
Buffy looked relieved that they had changed back.
' I would say, let's go and save the world, but Giles needs to do some research. Don't you?'
' Um, yes I do.'
She noticed Xander looking at her strange, and also found herself staring back in the same manner.
' Um, Buffy? Do you mind if we talk, in private?' he asked.
' Sure, want to go into mine and Will's room.'
He nodded unblinkingly.
' Well I'm going now anyway, so you won't have to leave this room on my account.'
'Or mine , Giles, can we go to that library you got that book from, I just really want to see if there are any more like that.I'm starting to really get into spells and stuff, and don't give me that lecture on how spells can be dangerous if used wrongly, I think I can handle it.' said Willow.
' Indeed, see you later you two.'
Willow and Giles left, but Buffy and Xander hardly noticed. They were too busy staring into each other's eyes. Buffy felt a strong impulse to grab him and kiss him there and then, but wanted him to make the first move.
The sun had already gone down and his dark figure stepped forward, still staring.
' I feel...' she started to say.
The song by Sugababes sprang to mind:

‘You look into my eyes, I go wild out my mind,
I can’t see anything, cause this love's got me blind,
I can’t tell myself, I can’t break this spell,
I can’t even try.’

They couldn't seem to shake off this impulse.
Xander thought, well if you can't beat it, go with the flow.
He pulled her close and snogged her passionately.
He felt up and down her legs and thighs, finally reaching under her skirt.
She started to pull his butt close so her hips were pushing into him, and she groaned as she felt his erection. Xander started to unbutton Buffy's dress slowly, his fingers stroking her skin as he did so.
She just wanted him to touch her all over.
Suddenly, this felt wrong, as if this wasn't her decisicion, but someone else's. She pulled back, her unbuttoned dress flapping open in front of her exposed breasts.
He stepped forward in protest and started to caress her boobs, and his fingers wandered onto her nipples.
She arched her back, giving into the passion once again. Her moaning exited him.
He wanted more than this.
He needed more than this.
He took off his shirt and jeans, leaving only his boxers left, and then he pulled down Buffy's dress.
Only a thin barrier of underwear separated them and they kissed each other once more.
He started to kiss her neck, feeling her pulse beneath his warm lips. He too then felt strange, he felt a hunger he had never experienced before. A hunger for blood.
He felt his teeth elongate, and his face change. He couldn't fight this sensation of wanting.
He parted his lips and bit into a beautiful blue vein that was screaming out to be drunk from.
Buffy felt the fangs bite into her boiling skin, draining her life's blood away. And she realised that she didn't care, something was keeping her fixed there in that position, haunting her rational thought, making her do as it said.
Xander didn't understand what was happening, he didn't have the same strength to fight this as Buffy did.
Buffy felt his erection, and stroked his shaft unwillingly.
He went to make his move and pull off the rest of her clothing, but she stopped him with what little strength she had left. Xander was still drinking deeply, savouring the taste of her.
Buffy passed out from the pain and loss of blood, but strangely enjoying this sensation.
He let go and stared at her lying on the floor like a rag doll. Her features once so full of life were now pale like white candlewax.
He knelt down and stroked her face. He needed to go to his master, find out what needed to be done next, now that he had killed the slayer. He had done as the voice had ordered, use his powers that his master had given him and seduce her. His master would be waiting for him. But he also felt another voice telling him to help her, and to get her to a hospital. That voice soon faded away and Xander pulled on his clothes and put Buffy in the bed.
He walked to the other side of the room, opened the door and was swallowed into the blackness of the corridor, leaving his once long time friend's body stone cold dead in the bed.

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