Love: Back to the Beginnnig
by xxkissmekillmex
Chapter 1

Willow Rosenberg lay down on the hotel bed, The Scooby Gang and those who had survived the fight had stopped at a hotel to rest. They were on their way to Rome, but decided to take a rest. They were in New York for the time being. Kennedy was taking a shower in the bathroom and when coming out would want to be with her. To Willow this was not right, something had changed. Was it that when she could have died she never thought of Kennedy? The only person she thought of was Oz. Where was he? Was he with someone else? Was he thinking off her? Did he know she could have died? It amazed her that she was thinking of him. It was almost like the past 3 years never happened. Now that Tara was gone and was never coming back it was almost as if she only wanted to be with Oz again. She replayed on scence in her head:
"Oz: The monkey's the only cookie animal that gets to wear clothes, you know that? You have the sweetest smile I've ever seen. So I'm wondering, do the other cookie animals feel sorta ripped? Like, is the hippo going, "Hey, where are my pants? I have my hippo dignity." And, you know, the monkey's just [in a French accent] "I mock you with my monkey pants." And then there's a big coup at the zoo.
Willow: The monkey is French?
Oz: All monkeys are French. You didn't know that?

Those days were the best of her live. How she missed them. She heard the shower stop. Kennedy came out of the shower and into the room.
“Baby can you help me with this,” she asked in a sexual way.
“ I DON’T THINK I AM GAY ANYMORE,” Willow replied as she ran out of the room.

Willow ran to Buffy’s room.
“Buff,” she called while knocking on the door.
Buffy opened the door and let her in, “Willow what’s up? I thought you would be with Kennedy.”
“Buffy something weird and kinda crazy is happening,” Willow said. Buffy just listened.
“When I did the spell back at the high school, I knew there was a good chance that I was going to die. I thought about my whole life and all the people I had loved. There were you, Xander, Giles, Dawnie, Tara, and Oz. then I started to think all about Oz; where was he? What was he doing? Was he with anyone? Did he know I was in danger? Every hour with him felt perfect and right, that only happened with Tara and him. I don’t feel that way at all about Kennedy. I am starting to just like her as a sister or friend. And it isn’t just her, it is almost every other women. I really don’t think I am gay any more. I mean I was thinking about what Xander would look like with his shirt off! I haven’t thought about him since I was 17! What’s wrong with me?”
They both sat quite for a while.
“I want to find Oz,” she added.
“Will this is something you really need to think about, this is a very big choice, you really need to talk to Kennedy, but I think that maybe finding Oz isn’t such a bad idea,” Buffy said.
“You’re right,” she said. They hugged and she left.
She decided to see how Xander was doing. The door was open so she walked in.
“Hey Xand, how are ya,” she asked. He looked up, he had been crying.
“Anya was the only one person that loved me and I loved back,” he said wiping the tears away, “and know she is gone forever. Well you know how this feels. It sucks so much that I punched the mirror in the bathroom, but that didn’t help.”
She laughed, “at least you didn’t turn black and vainly and try to destroy the world!”
“Very true, very true,” he said laughing.
“Tara will take care of her,” she replied.
“Ya, I want to change the subject now,” he replied, “got any happy news?”
“I’m not sure if I am gay anymore,” she said. Xander almost choked on her drink he had. She explained the whole story to him. He was amazed. It was a shock for him that she was gay and an even bigger one that she might not be anymore.
“May your bi,” he said. They both laughed.
“Ya, maybe,” she replied.
“Willow there is something I never told you, when Oz left the last time he gave me an address to contact. He wanted to make sure you were always ok. We have kept in touch ever since. He lives in Connecticut.” Willow couldn’t believe what she was hearing. She was in New York and he was in Connecticut, they were so close.
“I have to go,” she said. She got up and walked back to her room, Kennedy was waiting for her.
“I DON’T UNDERSTAND,” Kennedy said.
“I don’t either,” Willow replied.
“Well you know what Willow you have to figure it out. You can’t just keep playing with my emotions! I understand it is hard for you to love and I accept that, but then you say you might not be gay anymore, come on what the fuck is up with that?”
“It is different, I am different,” Willow said, “I have changed. I am so sorry I have hurt you, I never meant to. I still want to be friends.”
“I don’t want to loose you either, I better go find somewhere else to sleep I am to pissed to stay here.,” Kennedy said. With that she kissed Willow and left.




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