Is it Right?: Is it Right?
by Persephone
Disclaimer: I do not own or claim to own any of the characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer or any of it's plotlines. They all belong to Mutant Enemy, Fox, and The WB Inc.
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I said yes.
I am now going to become Buffy Anne Finn. I like it, but somehow, it doesn't work. Buffy Anne Finn. Not exactly what every girl dreams of, but I'm not every girl.
Neither is he every guy. No matter what happens, my realtionships will always become "freakshows" like you said. It wouldn't matter anyway, because a normal guy wouldn't undetstand.
He is a member of "The Initiative", or was. He hunts demons, too. Sure, he's not the normal guy you wanted for me, and deep down, I know he's not what I want. But he's what I have.
I love him, I do. But I will never be in love *with* him. Never. And I know, that if he knew, it would break his heart.
Maby times, late at night, when I'm wrapped in his arms and shrouded in darkness, I've thought about whether I'm doing the right thing.
If I marry him, and I give him children, is it wrong ? Is it wrong when I let him make love to me, when he calls my name with such passion, and tells me over and over how much he loves me ? Is it wrong to let him live with this lie ? Is it wrong for *me* to live with this lie ?
Our wedding will be sometime in May. It seems un-fitting for a slayer to be wed in the sun, when she spends most of her time in the dark. My place is in the darkness. As yours is, for now.
We havn't set a concrete date yet. We will soon enough.
Again, I question if it's wrong. I know that he's not my soulmate. Who am I kidding. And I know that everything would be a beautifull lie if we were married.
But I'm doing it for you.
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