Thoughts At The End: Buffy
by Sinister
This is it. Time to face curtain death…again. Alright Buffy just remember you have to be strong. Everyone is counting on you to lead them through this. I can’t let them down.
Buffy and the potentials gather around the seal. Faith hands a dagger off to Buffy, “You first B.”
Here we go. Once we all cut ourselves and open the seal it’ll be time. Time for what I still don’t know…time to save the world? Time to die? Whatever it is though…I’ll be ready. This is it and we are not backing down.
Buffy cuts her hand and passes the dagger back to Faith and then to all of the other potentials. They all place their hands over the seal and let their blood open it up.
Ok Buffy, take a deep breath. Everything is going to be ok. We’re going to make it through this I know it. So why am I so scared? I’m supposed to be the slayer, the strong one, the one who holds it all together. It’s a hard job sometimes but I guess someone has to do it. All I have to do is be strong. I can’t show that I’m afraid. I have to a remodel for these girls and lead them to victory.
The seal opens and starting with Buffy, they all walk down into the darkness.
Well…here goes nothing.
Buffy and the others reach the bottom of the stairs that lead to the Hellmouth.
Ok well so far this doesn’t look so bad. It almost looks like a gross basement or something and I don’t see any of the Turok-Han so that’s a good sign.
Spike is fondling his necklace, “Hate to be a buzz kill love but my fabulous accessory here isn’t exactly tingling with power.”
Buffy looks around along with everyone else, “I’m not worried.”
I’m not worried? I can’t believe I just said that. I am worried. I’m very worried. I guess its better that they don’t think that though. I’ve gotta keep up the happy front.
“I’m getting zero juice here and I look like Elizabeth Taylor.”
Faith walks towards them, “cheer up Liz…if Willow’s big spell doesn’t work it wont matter what you wear.”
God I hope Willow’s spell does work. If it doesn’t work all of these girls will be dead…not to mention everyone else in the world. And I don’t know what Spikes necklace is supposed to do but whatever it does I hope it starts to work soon. Ok Buffy keep up the moral.
They all move closer to the edge of the Hellmouth, “I’m not worried.”
They get to the very edge of the Hellmouth and look down at all the Turok-Han, millions of them just waiting to come up there and destroy.
Oh boy. Look at that…its just as I remember it from that vision those creepy guys gave me. Isn’t that comforting? Wow! Come on Buffy…put on your not worried face.
Worry appears on all of their faces, “I’m not worried.”
Oh yea that was great. You sounded really sincere there, very smooth.
Rona approaches, “Really…cuz I’m flashing back to Xander’s whole bathroom speech.”
Amanda looks at Buffy with extreme fright, “Buffy?”
Don’t worry I’ve got this under control. Any minute now Willow will work her spell and the girls will no longer be scared…or at least not as scared as they are now. I guess I’ll go with what I’ve been saying all along.
“I’m not worried. As long as Willow can work her spell before they…” All of the Turok-Han as if at once look up all at the same time, “see us.” The massive crowd of Turok-Han rush towards them.
Here they come. What am I supposed to do now? The spell obviously hasn’t worked yet. Shit. Come on Willow I need you to work you magic now. I hope she can hear me. Come on Will.
Buffy looks up at the ceiling, “Willow…”
Ok Buffy…braise yourself. You can do this.
The Turok-Han reach the edge of the Hellmouth where Buffy and the others are stationed. Willow’s spell has worked. All of the potential slayers are now slayers. A gigantic battle brakes out.
This is it. Willow’s spell worked and now we just have to pray that we can beat them back. We can do this, I know we can.
As the battle raged on Kennedy comes running down the steps of the Hellmouth, “Buffy?” She throws the scythe to Buffy, “catch.”
Oh now it’s on. The potentials are slayers and I’ve got my favorite weapon. These guys are toast.
Buffy uses the scythe to fight as others are also fighting all around her. They are killing many but the Turok-Han start to retreat up the stairs of the Hellmouth into the school.
Oh shit. That’s not good. I hope the others can handle them. I hope Dawn will be ok. I know she’s good at handling herself but I can’t help but worry. Woooh Buffy…pay attention to the fight. Yea that’d be a good idea.
Spike’s necklace starts to burn him, “Buffy?” He starts to walk towards her, “Whatever this thing does I think it’s…graahhhha.” He yells a blood curtailing scream of pain.
I think I hear Spike saying something but I can’t really see where he is. Need to focus on the battle. We need to beat them back. This is our only shot. I’ve gotta keep everyone going.
Buffy stops for a second, “Keep the line together, drive them to the edge, we can’t let them…” Buffy is stabbed in her gut from behind by a Turok-Han.
Oh God. This hurts. I should have been paying more attention to myself I guess.
She looks down, gasps in pain, and falls to the ground flat on her face.
Oh man. I think this is it for me…again. I guess I’m pretty much used to it by now but what about the others? Can they make it? Can they save the world? I hope the others are ok. I hope they keep Dawn safe for me.
Faith sees Buffy on the ground, “Buffy?” She quickly runs over to her and kneels down.
Faith…it’s up to her now. She has to lead them through this. She can do it, I know she can.
Buffy looks up at Faith in terrible pain, “Hold the line.” She hands the scythe to Faith. She turns around and continues the fight.
Wow this is painful. I feel so helpless. All I can do is just lay here and watch the others fight. All I can do is wait to die.
Faith gets taken down by some Turok-Han, “Rona?” She throws the scythe to Rona as she is taken down even farther by more of the ugly beasts. Rona catches the scythe and continues where Faith left off.
Oh no now Faith is out too. This battle isn’t going how I thought. I really thought we would win this but one by one we’re being taken.
Buffy is still on the ground in immense pain. She can do nothing but watch as the Turok-Han kill her slayers one by one. Then the first appears disguised as Buffy herself. “Oh no…oww…Mommy…this mortal wound is all…itchy.” The First looks at the cut in her stomach and then down at Buffy.
Oh this is just what I need. I can’t deal with this. Its bad enough I have to watch the people I’ve grown to love die but now I have to have this ass hole rub it in my face.
“You pulled a nice trick. You came pretty close to smacking me down. What more do you want?” The First gave Buffy a sly smirk.
That’s it. I can’t take this anymore. I have to live through this. I can’t lay here and listen to this thing gloat about a battle it hasn’t even won yet. I can’t let you win. This wound hurts but it will hurt me much more to just give up. I owe it to them to pull through this. I have to show them that we can still win this. We can still come back and we will.
Buffy looked up at the evil imitation of herself with anger and rage, “I want you…” she slowly pulled herself up, “to get out of my face.” Buffy stood up and the battle raged on.
There is no way I’m going to let the First win. All of the sudden the pain is gone. Now these guys are in trouble. No more Miss. Nice Slayer. If we band together…we can still win this. We will win this.
Faith also kicked her way up. It was as if there was a new found spirit that wouldn’t give up. Spike’s necklace started burning him more, “Oh bolics.” A huge flash of light burst out from the necklace making a giant hole from the Hellmouth opening and throw the ceiling of the school, “Buffy?”
What the hell? Where is that sunlight coming from? Oh my God…Spike. The necklace…what is it doing?
Buffy could see what was happening to Spike and ran towards him, “Spike?”
Light started emanating from Spike’s necklace at every direction, killing every Turok-Han it touched.
So that’s what that thing does. Well Angel was right…it is coming in handy. But Spike? What is it doing to him? He’s a vampire sunlight is supposed to kill him. It looks like it’s killing him right now. I hope he’s alright.
Everyone began to run towards the exit, “Everybody out now.” Faith made sure everyone was getting out.
Buffy finally got to Spike who was smiling, “I feel it Buffy.”
Feel it? Feel what? The pain of dying? He can’t die. I need him. Things were just starting to go right between us. He can’t go now.
Buffy just looked at him confused, “What?”
“My soul…it’s really there…kinda stings.”
Buffy looked at him with worry, then she looked around. There were no more Turok-Han, Spike had killed most of them and the rest had gotten away and the new slayers who had made it were rushing up the stairs of the Hellmouth.
Good it looks like Faith is getting everyone out and I don’t think we need to worry about the Turok-Han anymore. Spike pretty much took care of them. I should be happy but he looks like he’s in so much pain. I don’t think he’s going to make it but I need him to make it. I’m not leaving without him.
Buffy looked back at Spike and he looked at her, “go on then.”
“No…no you’ve done enough…you can still.” She has tears in her eyes.
I can’t do this. I’ve lost too many people in my life that I love and I can’t lose another one. Pull yourself together Buffy. You have to be strong.
Spike interrupted her, “No…you’ve beat them back, it’s for me to do the clean up.”
He knew…he knew right when the necklace started working that he wasn’t going to make it out of here. Oh God this just sucks. I’m going to miss him more then I thought, I can feel it.
Buffy looked around, everything was coming down around them. She saw Faith at the top of the stairs, “Buffy come on.”
I don’t know what to do. I can’t just leave him here. I can’t do it.
Spike looked around and then smiled at Buffy, “gotta go lamb…I think it’s fair to say schools out for bloody summer.”
“Spike?”
“I mean it, I gotta do this.”
I know he needs to do this but I can’t let him go. I’ve lost too many people. I can’t stand it anymore.
Buffy grabs Spike’s hand and both of their hands burst into flames.
Ouch…I didn’t expect that to happen. I mean sure I expected something weird to happen but fire…yea I guess I should have saw that one coming. I need to hold on though. I need him to know that I care.
Buffy looks at him trying to hide the pain, “I love you.”
He looks back at her, “No you don’t…but thanks for sayin it.”
I can’t get anything past him. I don’t know how he does that. I do love him, just not in the way he loves me. He means so much to me and I just hope he knows that. I’ll always remember him. He’s my champion.
More things start to fall and their hands part, “Now go!” Spike just smiles, “I want to see how it ends.”
I’m so proud of him. He doesn’t even look afraid. He’s become such a good person and I just hope he knows that I’ve noticed. Oh boy…things are starting to get really bad…guess I better go. I’ll always remember you Spike. I hope he knows he’s my hero.
Buffy runs up the stairs and out into the hall, scythe still in hand. Her way out is blocked so she takes the stairs to the second floor.
Oh this is great…no way out. I need to make it out of here. After all I’ve been through today I can’t give up now. I wont let myself die when we’ve already won. I have to make sure everyone else is alright. I have to see for myself that they’ve made it out, and that their going to be ok.
Buffy gets onto the roof and jumps off onto another roof just as the school collapses behind her.
Oh boy…that was cutting a little close. Keep going Buffy. I see the bus and I can see Dawn in the back seat. Thank God she’s ok. If I can just catch up to the bus I can probably jump onto the top of it. It’s probably going to hurt like hell but it’s my only chance.
She jumps from roof top to roof top until she catches up to the bus. She jumps and lands on top of the bus holding on for dear life as it speeds away. As the bus speeds away, Buffy and the others in the bus watch as Sunnydale is destroyed.
I made it. Of course I made it…I’m Buffy. Woo, this is a bumpy ride. Wow…everything is being destroyed. Sunnydale itself is almost gone. I can’t believe it.
When the noise stops Faith looks up, “Ease off, we’re clear.”
The bus screeches to a halt and Buffy jumps down. She starred behind the bus and then ahead of the bus.
Wow! We did it. We destroyed the First and we survived. I never get tired of this feeling. This feeling that the world is still here because of the good we’ve done. I know there still is and will always be evil but as of now…the world is safe because of us.
The back door opened and Dawn jumped out and gave Buffy a huge hug.
Dawn, thank God she’s ok. I was so worried about her. I should have known she’d be ok. She is a Summers after all.
Giles got out next looking very confused, “I don’t understand. What did this?”
Buffy walked towards the large hole that used to be Sunnydale, “Spike.”
Spike is the real hero in all of this. He gave is life to save the world. We may have helped but Spike did this. Spike saved us all. I hope everyone appreciates what he’s done. I know I do. I think he found his redemption. Now he can be at peace. I’m so proud of you Spike.
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