Regrets
by Azrielle
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NOTHING Joss is king of the Buffyverse. Lucky bastard.
Rating: NC-17. Please do not read if you are not old enough, it contains
GRAPHIC sex scenes. You have been warned. If this offends you please go
elsewhere.
Spike is a Vampire so of course there will be biting.
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Summary: This is a challenge posted by
ioki_1@optusnet.com
on the
bloodsheadverse at
/www.bringonthebloodshed.com/bloodshedverse/
Challenge 12:
After Chosen Buffy is given a reward by the Powers That Be.
She may go back in time and directly change any one incident (other than
actually becoming the slayer) from her life. Obviously whatever she
changes will have an indirect effect on other events.
What would Buffy choose to change and what will the effects of her
interference be?
Must have: Spike obviously!!!
A red cocktail dress
A black Arabian horse.
Can have: ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT!!!!!
Regrets
“I just want to
sleep, yo. For like a week!” Faith said excitedly as she walked up to
the small group gathered at the edge of the crater.
”I guess we all could. If we wanted to.” Dawn murmured softly.
”Yeah, The First is scrunched so… what do you think we should do,
Buffy?” Willow asked stepping up right beside the blonde slayer standing
at the edge of the crater that was all that was left of their homes.
”Yeah, you’re not the one and only Chosen anymore. Just gotta live like
a person. How’s that feel?” Faith asked stepping up to her other side.
”Yeah, Buffy. What are we going to do now?” Dawn asked.
Buffy just turned to Dawn and smiled. She opened her arms to her sister.
Dawn hugged her tight and they cried, for the vampire they both loved,
for the hero he had become.
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“So you get to decide…what is your biggest regret? What do you want to go back and change? It’s your call, anything you want to change. That’s your reward.” They both stood waiting patiently, watching the emotions flit through her eyes.
Buffy closed her eyes and sighed. Her biggest regret? How bad she treated Spike. All he wanted to do was love her, and all she wanted was to punish herself when her friends pulled her out of heaven. He loved her so much he sought out his soul for her. When she found herself in love with him it was too late. What if she let him into her heart earlier? What if she didn’t use him to punish herself? What if she…
Suddenly she was talking, mouth moving faster than her words could form in her head. When she finished she sighed happily.
“Ok Slayer, close your eyes, when you open them you will have a big surprise.” The female smiled and placed the tips of her fingers against Buffy’s heart, the male placed his fingertips against her temples. They spoke in unison in some strange ancient language. Buffy didn’t understand any of it. None at all. She felt strange. Really strange.
She opened her eyes to tell them that something was wrong and looked directly into yellow fear filled eyes. “Spike?” She squeaked. “What are you…what am I…”
“Gave me quite a scare Luv. Don’t do that again.” He rested his forehead against hers and sighed. His hand came up, fingers entwining in her golden tresses. “Can’t have you passin’ out like that at the wedding…” He murmured softly. Leaning in he captured her lips in a passionate kiss.
“Let the healing
power begin. Let my will be safe again. As these words of peace are
spoken, let this harmful spell be broken.”
Thunder crashed and lightning flashed. Suddenly, all of the demons
disappeared. Buffy and Spike gazed into each other’s eyes as Willow’s
voice filled the air. Buffy grabbed Spike by the lapels and flipped them
over, so she was on top, though neither of them attempted to pull away
from the other.
“Hi, guys.” Willow said sheepishly, raising one hand to wave.
“Merciful Zeus! You got here just in time Will…” Xander’s words trailed off as he turned towards Buffy and saw her now straddling Spike. He watched her lean forward and kiss him softly.
“Uh…Buff? She broke the spell…you can get off of the Evil undead…” He walked over towards them and held out his hand to help her up from her compromising position.
She turned her head and looked up at her friend. “I <i> know </i> the spell is broken Xander, like I told you I escaped the spell cause I’m the slayer. My feelings are real and Spike and I are getting married.” She turned back to her vampire and took in the shocked expression he wore. “Come on fang face.” She crawled off of him and helped him to his feet.
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“Is that all I had to do to shut you up? Declare my love for you for real without a spell?” She asked as they walked silently side by side.
“Slayer…I…I don’t know what to say…” Spike stammered staring at the ground.
“Don’t you…aren’t you happy? If you don’t want to…if you want to call it off…”
“No nothing like that luv. I just need time to adjust is all…I can’t believe you really…feel that way… <i> about me.” </i> He almost whispered the last two words, she had to strain to hear them.
“Of course I do Spike. How could I not? You are gorgeous, you never give up on things you want, you know me, I mean really know me, and you haven’t run away yet. No matter how hard I’ve pushed you, no matter how many times I said I wanted you gone…you stayed. The few kisses we’ve shared…mind blowing, knee weakening kisses, that just left me wanting more of you…” She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye. “Plus…I could so kick your ass…” She grinned and launched herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck and her legs around her waist.
“Mmmm Slayer, you smell so good…” Spike murmured nuzzling into her neck. “Mmmm Buffy. My Buffy…I like the sound of that.” He grinned against the soft flesh of her neck, sending shivers down her spine.
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“I want to go in and tell him myself…I don’t want him getting any dusty idea’s about you.” Buffy said softly leaning into Spike.
“T’s ok luv, I’ll just sit out here and have a smoke.” He pulled her close and inhaled her scent.
“I won’t be long…then we’re gonna have to go tell my mom.”
“Anything you want luv…” He grinned suggestively.
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“Buffy you can not be serious…please…tell me you’re joking…” Giles said polishing his glasses feverishly.
“I know it's nuts, but… Spike’s strength matches my own, he never gives up in battle, he loves with his whole heart…He knows what I am, what I do, I don’t have to hide anything from him, not being the slayer, not being anything I want to be…he will be my partner in every way imaginable. I want that…I want it so much…I hope you can accept that and be happy for us…and I still want you to walk me down the isle.” She took in his shocked, horrified expression and sighed softly. “I know you’re going to need some time to adjust to it…but Giles…no matter what you say…”
“Have I ever been able to stop you? I mean really Buffy. I trust your judgment, really I do…it’s just…” Giles removed his glasses, closed his eyes and sighed. ‘I just don’t want anyone else I love to die at the hands of an evil bloodsucker.’ He opened his eyes and glanced at her. She was standing there so dejected. “What ever you chose to do with your personal life…I will support your decision…and as long as it’s ok with your mother I’ll walk you down the isle.”
Buffy let out a whoop of joy and grabbed him in a bear hug.
“I need to breathe…” Giles gasped.
“Oh…sorry…I’m just so excited…I have to go…we’re going to go tell my mom.” She walked towards the door, hand resting on the handle she turned to him once more. “Thank you Giles. I meant it when I said you’re more of a father to me than Hank ever has been. I love you.” Tears in her eyes she turned and fled his flat.
“I love you too…” Giles said softly to the now empty room.
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Before anyone asks, when Buffy returned she did NOT retain any of her memories at this point.
End part ONE.
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