Summary: A short piece on Buffy's thoughts directly after Surprise. Companion
to "I Can't Stop."
Spoilers: Surprise.
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine, no matter how much I wish they were.
For Mel, who has a thing for Buffy and Angel. :)
"Well, go on. Make a wish."--Joyce
"I'll just let it burn..."--Buffy; Innocence
It's my birthday. Nothing I've ever gotten could compare to the crush of Angel's arms around me right now. The coolness against my warmth. But I revel in the fact that against me, he becomes warm.
I feel like my whole life was leading up to this moment. A moment where nothing matters but the feel of his chest against my cheek, his hands on the small of my back, his velvet bedcovers. Maybe Fate is paying me back for all I've gone through, not that I ever expected some sort of payment. Angel absently kisses my shoulder and I snuggle against him.
This night in his arms was perfect. He brought me to the ends of ecstasy and back, over and over. He made my every wish come true, my every desire and fantasy were completed tonight. I finally understand this closeness, this being together, having him inside me, having his lips on my body that is so revered. I felt like I was no longer just one person. My loneliness encountered his, and with some ironic twist of fate, made it so that we weren't lonely anymore. I feel like I'm part of him in a way, and he's part of me. When we were moving together, in the act that is as graceful and beautiful as it is messy and passionate, I could feel myself moving in, taking over, cleaning his scars. I helped him learn that his soul wasn't something to be feared.
It was beautiful, like he was.
I could feel his wings healing under my touch, and at the same time, I could feel him teaching me so many things about love that I hadn't known before. I gave myself to him without thinking tonight. In truth, I didn't need to think. We both knew it was time; We both knew that every Love has to be realized to the fullest extent eventually.
Now we're resting. I can almost hear the thoughts whiz by in his head, but I keep my eyes closed, determined to relish the moment with silence and sleep. I'll wake up tomorrow with him, and I'll succeed in making him happy in a way that he had never been before. I'll fulfill all his dreams and hopes for me and us, and I'll understand how deep love can truly go.
Every wish I ever made came true tonight.
The End